My thoughts and whatever moves me.
So ... again a story about India. Finally I can write again .. I mean I'm feeling like it again. Train, Rain and Taxi So, to visit my boyfriend from Santiniketan I always had to apply for leave. And as I was visiting quite often, I had to apply very often,...
..."Try to feel good about yourself even when you feel like the least worthy of creatures. Reject all those negative thoughts and let the Mother take possession of your body and soul; surrender yourself to dance or to silence or to ordinary, everyday...
Have You Ever Really Loved a Woman? ( Bryan Adams ) To really love a woman, To understand her, You've got to know her deep inside ... Hear every thought, See every dream, And give her wings when she wants to fly. Then when you find yourself lying helpless...
Washing clothes and other things In these first few days I also learned how to wash clothes by hand, without washing machine or even hot water. Once in a hotel I found that my clothes are too much dirty, and i really needed to wash them. So i went to...
Changing rooms - politics So, I reached the hostel, the students warden and her friends welcomed me warmly, I could have food with them. They showed me my room, and I met my roomate. My roomate was a small, very thin girl . She seemed quite shy, but I...
M y days are not really going well. Actually I feel very weak and close to dying. No, not my body will die, but my soul. I need some way out. So I will try to be happy about everything I see. For example, right now it is snowing. They were predicting...
The first few days in India On July 29th my journey began. I was flying from Frankfurt to Mumbai, and from there after 6 hours of waiting to Kolkata. My parents accompanied me to the airport ... in fact, they brought me there. My father was very sad that...
Thoughts Well ... today I'm not going to tell about my experiences in India, because I had a very bad day. Paulo Coelho says, that if you really want something, the whole universe conspires, and you'll get it. But somehow, in my case ... because of ONE...
Yes, it really does! I am working at the gardener's shop now. I had so many job offers, but in the end I took this one, because it was the best. Just next to my door, I am outside and with nature. A little hard work is what i need. And it is really interesting,...
In a distant land .... not so far away, there is a girl who still has not fully dealt with her not so very recent past. She tries to be happy and cheerful, but it hardly ever works. She can wear a mask, sure, but there is not much feeling behind it. She...
Since I last wrote here, a lot has changed. I had another boyfriend, who treated me ... not very good. I was in therapy for 3,5 months and I learned a lot about myself. I do not live alone though. Living in a shared flat is okay for me, with the right...
Comfortable as I am I need your reassurance And comfortable as you are You count the days But if I wanted silence I would whisper And if I wanted loneliness I'd choose to go And if i liked rejection I'd audition And if I didn't love you You would know......
Mhhhmmm ... there are some very tasty snacks in India, called: Pakora But I was just calling them "fried snacks". And was asking my boyfriend if we could have some "fried snacks" someday. He looked at me in confusion, and asked WHAT? Again I said: fried...
I know it's been a very long time, since I updated this blog. But my time was not the best recently. I think, and I hope, now it is going up again. I have some ... not really plans, but something like that for my future. Because if I plan ... everything...
Now I am back in Germany, and I have to find a job, so that soon I can return to India. So .. last Friday I was given a chance in a bakery in Trier. It was a kind of trial-working. I was working, selling pizzas and Brezels and rolls. It was raining and...
what are societies, what are cultures? Isn't t a concept invented long ago, with a lot of rules lost validity? Still people stick to it. I for myself feel, that I have difficulties to adjust to my own culture even. I think I am not fitting in really anywhere....
Ecclesiastes 2:25-26 (New International Version) 25 for without him, who can eat or find enjoyment? 26 To the man who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand...
"... I spent today outside a funfair. Since I can't afford to fritter my money away, I thought it best just to watch other people. I stood for a long time by the roller coaster, and I noticed that most people get on it in search of exitment, but that...
Dirty Kitchen Eternity - Tilt ('Til it kills) The harder I struggle The tighter you grip But don't need to tell you That's the way that I want it I'm easy to follow You're easy to spot I bet I can shake you off But I gotta wanna do it What good are the...
out of SONGS OF EXPERIENCE by William Blake Dear Mother, dear Mother, the Church is cold, But the Ale-house is healthy and pleasant and warm; Besides I can tell where I am used well, Such usage in Heaven will never do well. But if at the Church they would...
Exodus 10:17 Now forgive my sin once more and pray to the LORD your God to take this deadly plague away from me." 1 Kings 8:35-37 (New International Version) 35 "When the heavens are shut up and there is no rain because your people have sinned against...
So ... what has happened? I don't know. I only know that i was worried, and i did what I could to find out what is going on and take actions if needed, and to be relieved. I got relieved, but I also got ungratefulness, I got anger. I got anger for caring...
Gegrüßet seist du Maria, voll der Gnade, der Herr ist mit dir, du bist gebenedeit unter den Frauen, und gebenedeit ist die Frucht deines Leibes Jesu, der in uns den Glauben vermehre. Heilige Maria, Mutter Gottes, bitte für uns Sünder jetzt und in der...
Thinking too much is one of my major problems. Thinking in circles is another. But be that as it may, I think I got some good insights by thinking ... too much. I thought about the recent developments. It occured to me that people blame ME when they treat...
That awkward moment, when you wake up and you think WTF??!! That happens quite often to me. But last night was absolutely special in it's awkwardness. I chatted with a guy from Pakistan and we discussed the Islam quite intensly. He invited me over to...
